Showing posts with label depressing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depressing. Show all posts

Wednesday, 24 April 2013

2013 NaPoWriMo Day 22

I’m Over You
You left me in my darkest hour to rediscover yourself you said
as you climbed in your car and drove away
I was lost without you – I saw you everywhere I went
in the spines of books as I wondered the library late into the night
in the songs on the radio as I drove to work every day
in the sudsy soap as I washed dishes from a meal for one
in the howling of the neighbour’s dog as I remembered the nights spent under the stars

You wrote me letters – one a week
I never opened them not even one
they lived unopened in a box under the bed

The pain you caused healed slowly
the jagged scars on my heart began to fade
I saw you less frequently now – my brain and heart vaguely remembering
the words
of love
of promises
of forever
that you whispered to me as we lay in our bed

One day I received a letter, confused I opened it,
realising only then that I had stopped thinking about you.
I had forgotten you; you were no longer part of my life.
Your letter said that
you missed me,
loved me,
realised that your home had always been me,
that you were coming back.

For a moment my heart beat with joy as I remembered
how I once loved you – but then I remembered as well
how you had left me and the pain that followed.
But more importantly
I realised I didn’t care anymore.
I had moved on – forgotten you – washed you out of my life.
I sighed, thinking to myself.
It is now your turn to feel the pain of heartbreak.

Saturday, 20 April 2013

2013 NaPoWriMo Day 20

Again

In the black void
that was once my chest,
there used to beat a heart of flesh
but now
my heart is cold and silent –
a heart of icy steel.
It has been
battered,
broken,
abused –
hurt too often to heal.
Please don’t try to wake it
from the icy tomb where it sleeps.
Please don’t force down the walls
surrounding my heart.
I cannot glue the piece back together
again –
when you leave me
again.
Please don’t try to love me
again.

Wednesday, 11 April 2012

NaPoWriMo Day 6


Loneliness...
Loneliness is
dancing alone in a crowded room
or sitting home alone,
as the black hole
inside your chest
grows bigger and bigger.
It’s hard letting the lonely go.

Loneliness is
all the sadness,
the anger and depression
eating away at you
until everything is numb -
numb, beyond caring,
beyond trying
to let the lonely go.

Loneliness is
feeling that nobody cares,
feeling nothing but emptiness.

Wednesday, 4 April 2012

NaPoWriMo Day 4


When We Die
When we die...
Will you follow me?
My love, will you follow?

Into the darkest depths
of nothing
or the scariest holes
of hell?
Into the fluffy brightness
of heaven
or the wailing bodies
of souls reborn?

When we die...
Will you leave me?
My Love, will you leave?

To disappear,
to vanish
like we were nothing
but foolish teens
pretending to care and love
and wishing only
for our own
happily ever afters.

So my love,
what will you do?
Will you follow me
forevermore into the dark?
Or will you drift away;
dissolving into nothing
like ice in hot coffee.

Monday, 2 April 2012

NaPoWriMo Day 1

Where Were You...


Where were you...
when I crashed and burned
and all my hurts needed soothing?

Where were you...
when life seemed so hard
and my mind turned to suicide?

Where were you...
when it all got too much
and I made my world go dark?