2014 NaPoWriMo Day 25, 26, 27, 28, 29 & 30

Day 25 - Where Were You


I hate this,
me being too scared
to ask you the questions I desperately need to ask.
You're being cruel.
I don't know if it's intentional or not.
You're all openly discuss Her and the money
you all received from the Estate,
all clearly knowing I got fuck all.
You know my current financial situation
nor do you know my side of the story
about what happened between Her and me.
There is three sides to this story -
Hers, mine and the truth.
Not one of you ever bothered
to ask me my side,
therefore thinking she is justified
in cutting me out of Her will.
I didn't deserve that
and then to have your new wife
tell me how great a person you are,
how big your heart is
and how you give all you have got to help,
to love.
And in my head, as I nod numbly
at this statement was...
Where were you for me these last five years?
Where were you when I was ignored and dead to you?
Where were you when my life turned to an all consuming hell?


Day 26 - Breakfast Run


Strong wind buffeting helmets,
hands clenched tight to sissy bar,
winding curves, leaning too far.
Best ride in too long.


Day 27 - Family Ties


Family relationships when broken
need to be fixed.
Blood is key,
ties that
bind.


Day 28 - Gargoyles


Our friends made of stone,
silent watchers of the day.
The dark brings new life.
Brothers and friends, innocent
creatures we have lost to time.


Day 29 - Go Green


Angelic creatures
who roam this dying planet
to fight a battle
they are constantly losing,
good souls dying for the light.


Day 30 - We Wish You Well


Farewell my Friends,
I bid you Adieu.
The world has changed,
becoming a chaos we cannot manage.
We have ravaged and wasted,
destroyed and mistreated
the landscape that surrounds us.
We have poisoned everything -
water, air, earth, animals, lives and souls.

Farewell my Friends,
I bid you Bon Voyage.
The world has changed,
becoming a wound we cannot heal.
We have sold our humanity
with greed and corruption.
Our civilised ways have destroyed
families, friendships, tribes, all people,
creating a 'me and I' concept of thinking.

Farewell my Friends,
I bid you Arrivederchi.
The world has changed,
becoming a wasteland we must regrow.
So we ask those that do not care
to kindly enter the dome before you
where you will be serenely gassed,
so that we may fix the planet we have ruined.
My Friends, we wish you well.

2014 NaPoWriMo Day 21, 22 , 23 & 24

Day 21 - Heaven and Hell

Living on this Earth
is Hell with Heaven sometimes
around the corner.

Day 22 - Unsure
I am unsure of
how to handle this
situation we
are in. I am still
unsure where we stand.

I still do not
know your motives.
Be they true or
are you playing?

I hope you
are trying
to amend,

answers
I seek.

Unsure.

Day 23 - Uninspired
Writing every day
I am finding it harder,
my muse disappears
for long periods of time,
returning when life is hell.

Day 24 - The Beast Inside

This world is one storm after another,
where the calms are few and far between.

We tiptoe around the office,
me wishing you were rotting in hell
while you treat me like I don’t exist.
We’re emotional storms,
circling each other,
sucking in our co-workers,
unwilling, forcing them to choose sides.

You’re cold, distant, barely leaving a trail
compared to my volatile, angry outbursts.
People cower in my wake,
suffering quietly through my rages.
All because you didn’t have the balls
to do what you needed to.

They know you now for what you are.
You’re no longer the old school gentleman
in their eyes.

All you are is the Bastard
who broke a Woman
and woke the Beast inside.

2014 NaPoWriMo Day 18, 19 & 20

Day 18 - Wish Granting Factory


Can I run away from my life?
Run away from this Chaos.
Can I become someone else?
Other than my ragged, tired self.
I don't want to live my life.
I'm tired of all the trouble I attract.
I know this world is not
a Wish Granting Factory.
But is it too much to ask
for a carefree life -
in a job I love, with a man who treats me right -
without a care in the world.
I want to run away from my life
but the world is unfair,
pushing and pulling
the threads that connect us.
I want to run away
but the world does not grant Wishes.


Day 19 - Wounded


The fox runs
through the sun dappled woods.
It's startle, reacting

to every sound
and creature who nears it.
Fear is key.

Fox and human,
both alike in this world
of utter chaos.

The fox fears
what it encounters - it's wounded.
Just like us.


Day 20 - Little Scaredy


My baby,
my Little Scaredy.
I still can't believe we lost you.
I don't know why but please know
that you were very much loved.

You were adorable,
my little man.
Following me everywhere,
tail high up in the air,
purring with pleasure
just like your daddy,
my beautiful Rogue.

My sweet baby.
It breaks my heart to lose you.
You were too young to die.
I love you,
forever and always,
my wonderful little man -
my Little Scaredy.

2014 NaPoWriMo Day 10, 11 & 12

Day 10 - Freak Accidents

Kitty jumps off fridge,
door handle catches her tight -
ends with broken paw.

Day 11 - Unbelievable

You call after a
year – to invite me –your wed
-ding – it’s in two weeks.

Day 12 - Sacrificial

Like lambs to the slaughter,
you would sacrifice our lives -
our families and humanity.
Because you fear what you must do.
Because you still fear the man you must stop.
We suffer -
wanting and waiting -
patience growing thin.
Stop being scared children and fight for what’s right.
Fight for a new day.
Fight to rebuild.
Cut away the evil that threatens us all.
Fight for us
and for yourselves.

2014 NaPoWriMo Day 8

Eating Alone

 

You told me you loved me
countless times.
You were my light
after endless dark days.
My comfort
when I thought about my father.

 

But you had flaws
I could not accept.

You had no respect for me or my time,
two in the afternoon is not morning.

Did you really think
that poking me in the butt
with your cock,
while I was sleeping,
would put me in the mood?

That is the reason
I would get up early
to go read on the couch.
You were a selfish mommy’s boy,
jumping to act every time
she opened her mouth.
You had the audacity to break up with me
on Valentine’s Day.

I know now
that I was just a convenient sex doll.

So now you are gone
and I am neither happy
nor am I sad.
And so every morning
I sit in my kitchen
and eat my oatmeal alone.

2014 NaPoWriMo Day 1

Your Desire and Me


"Tell me your desire
and I'll rush to fulfil that wish:
a star from the sky
or do you want a starfish?"
- Caicara Song by Flavio de Araujo (Translated by Rachel Morganstem-Clarren)


Oh, to the fire in my soul,
to the rising sun of my dying night -
tell me what you most desire,
tell me what wish I must fulfil
to keep your bright light burning beside my blackened soul.


Do you wish for the stars in the sky?
All of them dim compared to your light.
Do you wish for the jewels in the earth?
All of them flawed compared to your beauty.
Do you wish for the rainbows in the water?
All of them insipid compared to your aura.


I would bring you the world,
if only you stayed.


Oh, to the ice in my heart,
to the dying stars of my broken dark -
I asked what you most desire,
I asked what wish I must fulfil
to keep your demented soul burning beside my broken heart.


I offered you the world,
if only you stayed -
but my love for you was never good enough,
never good enough for your hollow heart.